Computers are the absolute gayest shit ever

[Sparrisen]

Today: I've been sitting by the computer all day. I've been eating noodles, drinking milk. My plan today was to just have fun. Do what I wanted. A little time by the computer can't hurt no, can it?

OH FUCK

I've just spent 1 fucking day in front of my little magical box. I've only jacked off once, and to internet porn instead of actually using my brain. This is one day of turning my fucking brain off.

OMG I don't even know if I can sleep. I have to take a run to even feel like I've done anything at all. It's raining. magical. I feel like a fat fucking slug. Seriously.

I think there's a lesson here.

Alright: in the optimal world, what would I have done.
1: actually, I think it's good. I think I need a day off to nerd around like this just to realize how much it sucks. One day a week, I get to be a total retard, sit, fart, accomplish nothing at all, so I can look back at it as my motivation, my fear factor, to breed distaste with the computerbox, to maby indulge in candy and sweet shit, to utterly puke all over myself, go to bed and feel unworty of living. Throwing this gift of life away by overindulgning in aboslute bullshit.

To see what happens if I let my outdated monkeyfeeling take over, loose control. See what life is like with no magic, just staring at a little piece of junk, begging for endless entertainment because I'm so useless I can't make up an adventure of my own.

Yea, I think I fucking need this. I need this day to convince myself of the lie inherent in all emotions. But man, does it suck.

[Oynamak]

Agree. I was out the past 8 days, and yesterday I thought I'd stay at home cuz I felt like it somehow, dunno. bad decision, was bored infront of my PC. games, facebook, youtube all day. cooking, back to pc, smoking, back to pc. I've missed like, so much that day, but instead I was .. infront of my PC. games, facebook, youtube all day..,

useless shit (atleast for private use)

[Nightmare]

Gamers complaining about sitting in front of computers... come on, you're not fooling anyone here.

[Sparrisen]

dude, I stick around this forum purely because I love you guys with all my non-genital parts. There IS a gaming drive in me, but I'm starting to find it repulsive, because every day I indulge in that, it just seems to get me a day closer to death, without anything to show for it.

"This is your life, and it's ticking away, one minute at a time" - from fight club. If you think back on the past minute, did you spend it to it's fullest? Was this minute a worthy way of living the few minutes you have?

I'm 23. Until 30 I can be my own master, and then I have to take more people in consideration than myself, as future children and spouse, and the rest of my family.

that's 6.5 years left. 6.5 * 365 = 2372.5 DAYS

After today, it's gonna be 2371
Then after tomorrow 2370

And the days are going FAST. How fast did last year blaze by? it's SO FAST. How long does it take you to count down from 2372 to 0?

"Well that's only til you're 30 you got the WHOLE of your rest of your life as well!"

THat's about 23725 days left TOTAL. That's ALL I HAVE. And I won't really be climbing mount everest in the end of that count. Might not even be coherent enough to form these sentances. So, today, I'm satisfied with. Yesterday was a total waste, but maby I needed that waste to realize what a waste it is. Tomorrow, will most likely be glorious.

[Oynamak]

Gamers complaining about sitting in front of computers... come on, you're not fooling anyone here.

but ourselves?


And.. a fightclub quote, love you sparr.

Theres a time for gaming, alot. There is a time to fuck around, alot. trying out things.. Time to care, friends, family, job, w/e, damn - you can't plan your life. If you wake up it's up to you. then it's time to "....", and you should just do it. Even if your brain tells you that you don't feel like it - your brain is stupid, he wants you to have the least fun, ever. So it's not a brain or think-dependent thing, its a .. just-do-it thing. Don't care, do it. You can say yourself "wasnt worth it" afterwards, but you won't know it before. Guess that kind of thinking changes when you grow older, but ..you aren't old yet. (epiphani! haha)
You're like 2372 ain't fucking much. A week can be boring, and go quickly - but damn, it can be a long week, it can be .. the fucking best week of your life - every week can be, if you just use every fucking week, every day, every fucking minute (that goes too deep but guess u got me).
(In addition, our enemy, too, is laziness. Get over it, its totally worth it, like, just fuckin do it)

makes sense? dunno, just wanted to write smth :p sparr makes me wanna write, cant stop, help me.

[Nightmare]

If you think back on the past minute,did you spend it to it's fullest?

Well I just took a shower, which was nice and relaxing and I'm now feeling better than I was before the shower, so I think it was time well spent.

Right now I'm writing down this message and although it probably won't give me similar satisfaction than showering did, I still consider this a worth while action as it delays me from doing a more boring thing: reading to my exam.

How long does it take you to count down from 2372 to 0?

A pretty fucking long time if you ask me.

[Sparrisen]

heh:) IMO, you're saying things absolutely right oyn:)

How long does it take you to count down from 2372 to 0?

A pretty fucking long time if you ask me.

Cool, then, may I ask you, how long have we been on dawnspire forums? What does it feel like? I'd say it feels like tops 2 years, that's how it FEELS. I joined up as I was in the military, and you were here even long before that. That's 5 years ago. 5 YEARS ago. Wow, to ME, that went by soo fast. (1825 days)


EDIT: And in that time, I did military, studied at two different universities, started medschool, had my own place for the first time, lived in- until today - 8 different cities-  started self development/picking up girls hardcore, went in to medschool, become help-instructor of my martial arts class, had 5 different jobs, had my mother, my best friends twin brother die, spending time with my fathers resulting girlfriends, touring norway in a tent - living in places as parking lots(pic), public parks-, and now, travelling the world.

And it still went by like nothing.






I don't even know what point I'm arguing anymore. Maby that you can't possibly do TOO MUCH with your time here. Even if you do what would SEEM like too much, to me, that's just enough to barely satisfy me. I spent my first 18 years as a chode. Fuck, I was virgin until 19. There's so much to make up for, so little time left.

[Sparrisen]

Fuck it. People live life differently. As long as life is lived in a way that makes one happy, that's good. I just made this post to express my own, personal, distaste at the time.

If someone made a post to express their respective LOVE for the same thing that I start to HATE, that would be cool as well. It's like saying "I like blue". It's stupid to argue against it, but it's nice to have someone share their passions with you, just because they feel sharing.

[Oynamak]

You can ofc. be happy with your life and what you've done yet, until you see someone elses life, making you unhappy, jealous. Like, you missed smth compared to someone else. Like, you like blue, for years, then you discover green, red, yellow, and you're like "how could I've been happy with blue?" when you now see all the other colors.


Aslong as you don't know all other colors (of life), you won't be unhappy. A kid is happy with his baseball, but if he sees another kid having fun with a basketball, he's unhappy with his baseball, cuz, that basketball looks so much more attractive (until that other kid doesn't have fun anymore with that basketball).

Life is relative. Ain't good or bad, just better or worser, because, it's nothing compared to all, but all compared to nothing. it's.. relative.

[Sparrisen]

Mm. Personally I think my life would be better if I had slightly bigger balls.

Hey oyn, I might hitchhike in europe next summer, where are you at?

[Oynamak]

Mm. Personally I think my life would be better if I had slightly bigger balls.

Hey oyn, I might hitchhike in europe next summer, where are you at?

Austria - tyrol. Let's say austria is 750 kms long, from east to west. Tyrol is in west, vienna is 500km in the east (other end kinda). So if you hitchhike through austria, go to vienna (not tyrol), ima go there too.

[ReverendLostLamb]

So Sparr. If I think my life would be best spent as a priest in a church (just an example), I would have to work for that. Study. But if I died whilst studying, I would probably not think my last minutes were lived to the fullest. Does that mean we should all become what we want without any kind of preparation, because, you know, life could change in the blink of an eye and studying is just not worth dying for.
Naturally, if you do live 'til you're twohundred and twenty-six years old you might think the studying was worth it. But people don't live forever.
Yeah, not really clear. I'll give you an example in the hopes of clarifying things.

A religious man believes his sins will be forgiven if he completes a holy pilgrimage. He has a good life in the place he lives but the pilgrimage is something he must do. Something important. He never completes the pilgrimage because he gets eaten by wolves, murdered by highwaymen or is cut in half by lightning. Now, in all simplicity he accomplished nothing, since he never reached his goal. Wouldn't his time then have been better spent at home?

Theres a time for gaming, alot. There is a time to fuck around, alot. trying out things.. Time to care, friends, family, job, w/e, damn - you can't plan your life.

Obvious Bible reference is obvious [Ecclesiastes 3:1-8].

[Oynamak]

First of all:
If you die during studying, you won't care.. since you're death. It's the end unless you believe that your brain, memories, the ability to think will last beyond your death.

If it's like "Uh got cancer, gonna die in 2 minutes. Let's rethink my life, damn, I'm still studying!", then ye.. You'll forget it in minute #3.
It's rather, I'm gonna die in 6 months, now, have I accomplished enough to say "I'ma die happy" (where it doesn't have to be "damn good job, 15 years of studying", but you could have achieved satisfaction, happiness and die with a smile), or i.e. "15 months studying left - fuck".. like, it's to late. You'll die like "I've so much left to do".
But after all, even if you won't care.. noone will care, if you died happy, after your death. In 200 years, noone cares about whom you loved, hated. The highlights of your life. All you know, who are still able to think "Hey, that dude, awesome time, I love him", will die too. It's a circle. People die, you forget them, new people are born, and they will be forgotten aswell. That's why you have to live in the present. If you live for the future, you will someday die and never experience the.. the past you're waiting for. Future will come, no matter if you wait for it or not - it's unavoidable, use the time meanwhile, else it's past, wasted time.
If you, me, all used every minute to the fullest, no one would even have to ask himself that question. But we don't. You don't. I don't. But it's not a necessity, just use the days you've left - they are not ad infinitum (to add some latin)
Noone will remember your worries, so why care.

Obvious Bible reference is obvious [Ecclesiastes 3:1-8].

OFC I got this from the bible. OF FUCING COURSE
or not.

[Sparrisen]

Well I study (or resume it soonish). But I enjoy studying, it's fucked up challenging and you really need to devote your life to it, and if you don't have a GF while doing that you're fucked. - As in, **NOT** getting fucked.

But I enjoy the process because I like to fuck with my brain, and medschool is definetely fucking with ones brain. ¨

Then if you make an impact and stuff. That's interesting, but you live for YOU. This your chance, and if something happens after this life, how could you know that anyway. That's why it's call belief. I'd call it hope, personally.

I'm gonna make an impact, but I will do it because I LIKE making people happy. I do it for me.
 
So live for you.


(I mean, if you study, and you don't like that, well, that sux. Maby you should do something meanwhile, that you DO enjoy, if you really wanna be a priest so much.)

EDIT: And sure, most shit you do that's really good for you, you don't actually like to pick yourself up to do. Computer. I could do whatever, except maby having sex, and if someone asked me, "do you wanna try out this computer game?" , I'd be like "sure."

Requires no effort, totally mindnumbing. Totally unrewarding, and very easy totally to accept doing.

Travel the world in a mission to understand humanity, pussy, and get enlightened. Very hard to say yes to, sometimes though, but very rewarding.

[Smiskfisk]

ITT; Moralfags
Also, it's a lot, not alot. Remember?
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/04/alot-is-better-than-you-at-everything.html

Sparr, I think you are awesome.