Data-drug

[Sparrisen]

Time is our most precious resourse on this earth. With time, you can buy anything. You can buy money, but you can't buy TIME with MONEY.
There's a set amount of time alotted to each one of us, and in this life, we may choose how to spend it.

So, today, for the first time in weeks and weeks, I indulged in drug use. I webdrugged. It's sunday evening, I've been studying, playing guitarr, climbing trees, seeing old friends, chitchatting with people, getting to know some girls. I've been a good boy. Basicly every minute is a minute well spent. I'm a time-nazi now. Ackording to my schedule, I have ONE day off, until my exam in 30 days.
Having completed my goals for the day, I surfed around on FB. I don't know what I did on youtube, but it must've been something.

3 hours gone.



I have NO IDEA what happened. A girl poked me on facebook, I know that. I poked her back. But fucking 3 hours? OMG. That's amazing. This shit is really... wow. On a normal 24 hour period, there's 8 hours sleep, 8 hours work, 3 hours whatever (cooking, shitting, driving, shower - whatever it is you need to do), that leaves 5 hours of time you can actually spend on something worthwhile.

Probably would be more enrichening to actually TAKE drugs. Some acid can widen your perspective. Several weird people have said that drugs made them enlightenend in some way. I believe facebook, makes you dumb. As does WoW. Actually, I think WoW makes you into a Little Bitch.

Have anyone ever sat down and wrote down how you spended this day? And then try to make a change, write down the next day, how you spended that? You realize, that wow, there's actually not that much time to go around, and I spended the time I had, mostly on bullshit.

On the other hand, computers can save you time. Computers can help you, make things easier, free up time so that you can use that energy to empower your life instead.

FRANKLY I think, most people would have a harder time, quitting GAMING, or watching ZILLIONS of movies, than, for instance, quitting smoking.


"But I'm a GAMER, it's what I DO."
"But I'm a HIPPIE, it's what I DO"
"But I'm a RAVER, It's what I DO"

You're what you say you are, and you can change at any point. It should be easy to eradicate those points which is deterimental to your life, but for most people, it's not. Say what, three people I know just quite smoking. I'm as SOO proud of them, they could not BELIEVE they did that shit for so long. After a year of not smoking, they knew how disgusting it was. They couldn't see it when they were in it, but looking from a distance, it was clear.

That's the choice right there, you don't have one NOW. Quit for one year, and THEN you will have a choice. Then you can look and see if you wanna go back to the dungeon, or if it's not much more exilerating, in the sun.


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[Sparrisen]

So great, now what?

You just freed up some time. And you sit around. Your computer is still there. It's calling. NOTHING'S GONNA HAPPEN. It's still there, you and it, in the same room.

I found it helpful, to actually not have any cool games. To have a crappy internet connection. Travelling the world also helped.

Anyhow, you gotta find something to fill that hole, so why not take some time and just think about what you could do, briefly.

3 years ago: I made two A4 papers filled with pictures. I said, This Is What I Want.
If the universe, is your personal box of chocolates, what chocolates would you wanna try?
It doesn't have to be bigger than that. Explore. I wrote down a list, things that I wanted to do, even a little bit. On my list, there were, camping. Trying different new foods. Famous people I wanted to meet. Travel. A career I wanted. A fucklot of slutty girl-pics. Picture of a dude who looked like I wanted to look. Another dude, who acted like I wanted to act. But it doesn't even have to be deep like that. It could be, if you wanted it to.

I hung this above my bed, and I looked at it every night, just relishing in the joy of it. The joy of tasting all those chocolates. Getting passionate
There were two points in particulair, that I COULD NOT SEE HAPPENING.

1: One was travel.
2: Second was meeting a absolute rolemodel to me in person. I could NOT see that coming together, while focusing on the medical career I was pursuing at that point.

Look at that, I didn't know HOW at the time, but it came the fuck together. I had no IDEA how, but I did my best. And it DID happen. This might well be a good start.

A movie inspired me to this: "The Secret"
I thought it was a lot of superstitious bullshit, so I said to myslef, "You Never FUcking Know", and I tried it out, with all my heart.

[Sparrisen]

Yea, I use myself as a real-life example here. The point not being of course to have you validate me by saying "Ya, you're tha shit", but by saying the THINGS that *I* did, was helpful to ME. It might be helpful to YOU.

So while this is a nice story of how I started to get my shit together, looking at the ACTIONS I TOOK, might inspire, perhaps to similair actions taken, on anyones part, if you wanna change things up a little. Just sayin.

[Oynamak]

if smth is gonna change things up a little, its not this topic


btw, im reading "new earth" atm. Like it so far, page 75

[Sparrisen]

hey nice Cool that you actually do the things you say you will.

[Oynamak]

hey nice Cool that you actually do the things you say you will.

I wouldnt say things I wouldnt do

page 95 now and, my ego drops with every page
and my appreciation for others is getting a boost

edit - btw. i laughed my ass off @ that drug pic. made (atleast a part of) my day