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« on: May 03, 2010, 17:08:42 PM »

Yea. The last trip home for me, and I'm looking at my computer. And I realize. I gotta take it down. I've already baught a little handy computer to fit my travelling needs, it weights like 1 kilo, and seriously, you can't play games on it, I promise. This is amazing, letting go of this computer is like fucking giving up a piece of my soul. I have so much porn on it, the dirtyest kinkiest shit you could ever imagine. I have games, I have movies, I have all the magnitude of things that really are meant to distract me from life. Distract me from my studies. I feel the emptyness already. I can imagine that "wtf do I do now" feeling, that I've never felt as long as I could play one of the zillions of games on here. From now on, it's only the game of life that counts, and there's butterflies mating vigorously, flying wild, going all around in my stomach.

I realize, this computer was meant to keep me in my comfort-zone. Fuck that, I'm gonna blow all comfortbarriers. I'm gonna live on the road, I'm gonna hook up with sluts, so that I have somewhere to sleep, and then I'll let my friend sneak in through the window to sleep on the couch, while I summon fireworks and magic in the bedroom. Next time I slip in.

There is no room for a gaming computer in this! There's no room for a game. The one computer I have, it works for writing, browsing, watching eckart tolle looking weird, high on his enlightment, keeping in touch with my family and friends.  That is it.
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It feels great. Without me even realising it, even my computer was a veil seperating me from reality. The ultimate retreat. If the world is tough, there's another world waiting on the other side. Made up worlds. Friends who never even ever see eachother (even though I still love you all). REMARKABLY it feels like I imagine a alcholist would feel towards a bottle. Give it up, and he must face the world. He must face himself. And what he sees there, will be all there EVER is. I love you all.



  
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« Reply #1 on: May 03, 2010, 17:55:37 PM »

Mid-weeks, I'm an Computerholican. In about 2 1/2 months I got 5 weeks holidays before I have to work again. In 1 month all tests,exams are done for me.
I'm gonna study this month like shit, then mixmax RL with some computer, and for those 5 weeks I'm gonna let my PC offline - I'm gonna relocate anyway, and then LIFE for 5 weeks, and I wanna learn from it, to not be regulated by computers, handys, TV. You can actually wake up in the morning and start a new day - starting it with TV/computer, is not a new day, it's just an add-on of the days before.

I -know- you can life without it, and it's WAY bether to life without it (like 1 month in a year I'm without comp at all to try it), but with everyday life you think "lets just check it, why not" when you come home.. and every day you check more.. more and more you get seperated, from the things that are important, until you are at that point.. that point, you did not want to return to.


It must have been a GREAT life 25 years ago, without all this shit. Facebook and all that shit. Why are all just fucking writing via their mobile phones what they all the time? FUcking have a reverse of revolution - get back to real life - this is not real.
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« Reply #2 on: May 03, 2010, 20:44:14 PM »

Yupp, you do the right thing... I might consider it as well after having had a look at the evening's scores:

- Game 1071373, Rating: 0
- Game 1071372, Rating: 0
- Game 1071371, Rating: 0
- Game 1071370, Rating: +8
- Game 1071369, Rating: +4
- Game 1071368, Rating: 0
- Game 1071367, Rating: +41
- Game 1071366, Rating: 0
- Game 1071365, Rating: 0
- Game 1071361, Rating: 0
- Game 1071360, Rating: 0
- Game 1071359, Rating: +4
- Game 1071358, Rating: 0

Not a night well spent.

Go get laid instead. I will (at least go to bed...).

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« Reply #3 on: May 03, 2010, 20:52:46 PM »

REMARKABLY it feels like I imagine a alcholist would feel towards a bottle. Give it up, and he must face the world. He must face himself. And what he sees there, will be all there EVER is. I love you all.

Well, we all wish you the best of luck!

But statistically, 90% of alcoholics will have relapses.

So: See you soon Smiley
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« Reply #4 on: May 03, 2010, 22:05:01 PM »

After I left my computer at home, well, it's gonna be hard for me to play anything more advanced than tetris. But hey. Also that's cool oynamak. Really.
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« Reply #5 on: May 04, 2010, 15:23:31 PM »

L.I.F.E is a quite neat game I've heard. Mind blowing graphics and superb realism, but balance could need some tweaking.
Take care, and good luck.
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« Reply #6 on: May 04, 2010, 15:48:13 PM »

L.I.F.E is a quite neat game I've heard. Mind blowing graphics and superb realism, but balance could need some tweaking.
Take care, and good luck.

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« Reply #7 on: May 04, 2010, 16:12:58 PM »

Say hello to browser games!
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« Reply #8 on: May 04, 2010, 18:01:59 PM »

L.I.F.E is a quite neat game I've heard. Mind blowing graphics and superb realism, but balance could need some tweaking.
Link please? Google can't seem to find it.
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« Reply #9 on: May 04, 2010, 18:04:41 PM »

L.I.F.E is a quite neat game I've heard. Mind blowing graphics and superb realism, but balance could need some tweaking.
Take care, and good luck.

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« Reply #10 on: May 04, 2010, 18:05:18 PM »

More importantly, is it worth downloading?
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« Reply #11 on: May 04, 2010, 18:23:09 PM »

If you have enough space on your hard drive.
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« Reply #12 on: May 04, 2010, 18:27:43 PM »

Oh, does it take up much? I cleaned my comp today and ended up with 29.3 GB. Would that be enough?
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« Reply #13 on: May 04, 2010, 19:18:37 PM »

Oh, does it take up much? I cleaned my comp today and ended up with 29.3 GB. Would that be enough?

You'll need atleast 534 KB!
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